Catching up on a few things....

Christmas is just around the corner. My christmas concert for school is coming up! Though i am excited i am also very very nervous even though its very very rare that i actually get nervous. I know my friends and family will be out in the audience But i can't bring myself to use that as the confidence that i usually have. When I get out on that stage all by myself i will look out into the audience and if my family doesn't wave to me i won't sing. I Just need the reassurance that their are watching me. I really hope that everyone that i hope are out there are actually out there or i will be very sad. I want to have that reassurance and confidence that i usually have when i am on stage by myself but this time I'm kind of doubting myself on that part. On the brightside i know that if I mess up no one will know because no one really knows the song im singing. If you do your either in my class and you've heard it, or your just weird...... which would be weird. I am looking forward to that moment where I hear those applauds for me. That always makes my day when i am alone onstage. Everyone who reads this and is going to the concer better sit in the front row for my song and be clapping the loudest. Even though i cannot see the future i REALLY hope that i sing it just right! If you are there it will help a LOT.

My Eighth Grade year has been full of Victories and Defeats this year. My biggest defeats aren't really that big! But to me they mean so much. One of my biggest defeats was, well, I know it may sound funny but it was getting a B in math, for a short period of time. I believe that is my biggest defeat that i am willing to share. Tehe... One of my greatest victories is being submitted to a leadership convention by Mrs. Cammenga. I didn't know for a while but then my step mom told me and i felt so proud of myself. This year, i know i may sound a little self centered but so many people have told me to be proud of myself and be happy that i've achieved what i have. And I am. I am very happy and so very proud and i really hope others feel the same!

About a few weeks ago i spent about an hour, maybe longer, with Stephanie. We went through a lot of what she had written for essays and just for fun. I loved to hear her reading to me while we had cookies. (the cookies were yummy) Some of the things she read were funny and some were sad. I loved them all. She is an amazing writer and i love to hear what she has written. I am so proud of her because just last week she told me that she was proposed with a writing job for a woman who was wanting her life story written into a play. When I heard that she had asked stephanie i was so very proud and happy for her. Then the next day i believe or maybe a few days after she came into the house and said, "You know that writing job i had told you about?" I told her i did. She smiled and told me "Well, I met with the woman and she gave me the job, I even started writing some of the stuff down." I was so happy for her! I was so proud too. I am so very proud of her in so many ways not just for this but in so many other ways. She can make me so happy when im having a crappy day, thats one thing i love about her. She can make me laugh when i cry unlike a lot of people. She always looks on the brightside when shes talking to me and i love it. I love how no one else is like her and can make me as happy as she can. If your reading this i love you so much stephanie!! More that you can ever imagine!

I don't really know what else to write about so i think i'll jsut sign out for now! I might actually start writing on here more often now that i can actually remember. Well, bye peace out!!
Aria Joy

STUPID SUMMER!!

I have to tell you people the truth! I HATE SUMMER BREAK SOOOOOOOO MCUH!!!! I dispise summer break. I'd rather be at school surrounded by the people that i like to be around learning rather than being cooped up in my house every day with nothing to do. i also have to tell you that i REALLY love to learn. I love learning so much i would rather be at school learning rather than having stupid summer break. Also i miss my friends TONS AND TONS!! I miss hanging out with them every day. talking to them and sitting at lunch with them.i really miss them.

my friends are the best in the world and i love all. I have no more than three friends that i really talk to and sit with every day. Their names are matthew austin and mckayla.

Matthew just cracks me up. he's so funny yet so quiet. he usually likes to be quiet like all the time, but on occasion he does talk to us.

Austin is just funny. He is actually kind of the babysitter of the group. That's not a bad thing but still he has to watch Mckayla and I constantly so we don't hurt eachother. He is also like the brother that i don't fight with. now Austin does have his moments of insanity as we all do. He's only half freak where on the other hand mckayla and i are whole hearted and unashamed Freaks!! also he's calm most of the time but as i said he can be a little bit freaky at times just like matthew.

McKayla on the other hand is a never ending fountain of energy. I love her so much. She's more like my sister than my best friend. We fight all the time. But its just like a play fight. It really never gets to serious i promise. Sometimes we'll get into poking fights and sometimes we just argue over stupid stuff but THAT'S US!! i love her so much! if mckayla died i would cry and cry and cry and cry.(as i would do for my other friends too.) Mckayla is special in my life. She is just like me so i know i can be myself around her.

All my friends are special in very special ways. I never want to loose them and really hate spending the whole stupid summer away from them. I miss them all soooooooo much and i hope i'll be able to see them soon.

I CAN'T WAIT UNTIL SUMMER IS OVER!! one becuse i'll be in eighth grade and two because i get to take the advanced class for math next year!!!! I"M SOOOOOO EXCITED!! i love math. so i'll be taking a high school class next year!! YEAH!!

well thats all i have to write about until next time!
A. Joy

Tiring Work

This week I've been helping babysit my cousin Keagan. He is a very energetic kid and very tiring too. Yesterday my grandma and I had him for ten hours. I took care of him for 5 hours and she took care of him for five hours. today we had him for 6 hours her 3,me three hours. I am very exausted and i am going to babysit him tomorrow by myself for a few hours. I love babysitting him and i love him but boy is he a VERY strange kid.

I found out Keagan doesn't really like ice cream. He doesn't really like ANY sweets! He likes salads for lunch. He LOVES to clean. His favorite activity to do is sweep! i think to myself "WHAT THE HECK IS WRONG WITH THIS KID???" ((what the heck are his parents doing to him?????))

For people that know me yeah im a strange kid and i'm proud of it! But wow! I found a kid even straner than me!!! and i mean that in a bad way! Yeah i love him but something is seriously wrong with him. Adults may think "Oh boy his parents raised him right! He's healthy and he loves to clean." yeah it's true but really his friends are probably going to think "what is wrong with him". I don't mean to be mean but me thinking as a 12-year-old kid come on seriously??

well that's all i have to write! keep Reading!

A. Joy

The Fighting Toad

I just became aware that there is a blog for my step-mom's cousin, Jonny aka The Fighting Toad. He is fighting cancer and i just wanted to let any person who doesn't know about him that he could use lots of prayer. I pray that the chemo starts to help his cancer and that god will help him!

I personally don't know him as well as i would like but i still pray for him and i have hope that his cancer will be healed! i am planing to walk in the relay for life with his team and am quite excited to do so for his sake.

well i just wanted to put that out there and hope that you all will do some praying for him I know that i will! well thts it. i know its not much but thats all i have to write today!

YIPPIE!

last night my brothers came to my last choir performance! i was soo happy when i saw them in the audience. i tried not to let the tears of joy stream down my cheeks and i did thankfully! but they were there in my eyes. i was overjoyed last night really just sooooo happy! michael and zachary both said i was really good and suprisingly michael gave me a hug! :) that meant lots and lots to me and i think i did better than the performance on friday! AND i ran into the microphone! everyone thought it was funny!! (including me!) i was really excited when i came out on stage and michael said "woo go aria!" i almost started to laugh. That was the very first and last performance that the came to this year! I love them both very much and im very greatful to have them in my life!

Also, i finished a very interesting yet very good book called The Thief of Always. I loved it very much and it was such a wonderful yet kind of creepy adventure! Some of the characters just creeped me out! Well okay almost all of the creeped me out! the book was by Clive Barker, also the author of the book i started called Abarat. I didn't get to finish that book but i will! that was my 23rd book this year! im on to my next book which im not exactly sure what it is yet but hopefully will get one! well

well i think that's about it for today! Have a great memorial day and rest of the week!

A. Joy

I'M SOOOOOOO TIRED!!!

today i had a dress rehersal for my final choir concert! it was soooooooooo tiring! i was sweating sooo badly because i had to wear three layers! i had to waer a white tang-top and on top of that a black shirt and on top of that i had to wear a tie-dye shirt and on top of that i had to wear a white button up shirt and on top of that i had to wear a tail-coat. AND on top of my head i had to wear a FLEECE had. i was sweating like a horse within the first 3 minuets. i'm going to to have to that twomorrow and the next day!! GRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!! "I CAN'T WAIT!" GRRRRRRRRR!! i hate it! blah!!
A. joy

I could never be prouder...

I was just thinking about how proud i am of my brothers. I love them very much (even though i really dont show it)and i am soooo very proud of them. Really i could never be prouder of anyone else, not even myself. I go to every concert and performance they have and I always say to myself "im so proud of them". I love watching my brothers perform and i don't like to miss any oppertunities to see them perform. But i thinks it's funny because i go to almost, no, every performance they have and i still haven't seen them come to one of mine. I just hide it that i don't really care but truth is I get really hurt when i don't see them there. I try my best to keep them proud of me but i know they're not really as proud of me as i am of them. if i could have one wish in the whole world.... well maybe two the first one would be that my brothers would be proud of me. that they would show it in some way. After my performances in choir and band and drama i look happy to see my other family there and i am very happy to see that they could take time and come see me perform but all i want, maybe just once, is to see my brothers out in that audience watching me. some day i hope i can make them proud and let them know that I could never be prouder of anyone else in my whole life.

A. joy

a new book.

yesterday i started this funky looking book called ABARAT. the pictures are really cool and it has a weird storyline so far. i dont know what to expect from it so i guess this is a total surprise book. i cant wait to actually get into it. i just want to see where it goes with the storyline so i just cant wait to keep reading!! oh well i dont have much to write about and not many people are probably reading this so i guess thats it for now!!

A. joy

books, storms and an autistic boy

well last night i finished my 22nd book. maximum ride- saving the world and other extreme sports. it was a great book! i love that series by james patterson who is now my favorite author.

also last night my awesome step mom read me a story that she submitted to a magazine. it was how we should always remember that god is here to watch us when we are afraid. It got me thinking about my fears and how i fear them. I HATE being afraid and to tell you the truth I.... well fear it. Yes, i admit it i am afraid of being afraid. Every night when i get afraid i pray to god "Please lord god i am handing you all my fears and i pray that you just get rid of them for me. I hate being afraid and pray that you help me wash those fears right down the drain." I also sing to myself a verse that I learned off of a tape that my mom got my little brothers and sister. the funny thing is, is that tape was bout two little children being afraid of the storm and an angel came and helped them get rid of their fears by singing verses. Now i do have my own personal storm from time to time and i pray and sing and recite verses that i know to help me get rid of my fears. the verse that i recite is this, "the lord is my light and my salvation. whom shall i fear? the lord is the stronghold of my life, for whom shall i be afraid?" im not exactly sure what verse that is but it helps me when ever i get scared. i know that god will help me through my storms of the night and will help me get rid of my fears that i have and soon i fall asleep. I know i can trust in god to help me with my fears and that i shouldn't lean on my own understanding but trust in god to keep me safe.

now for my last subject on an autistic boy on my bus. he is a really smart kid and i hate how kids tease him just because hes different from them. i thought about him and how they tease and i have decided to reach out to him and be his friend. if he rejects me of course ill leave him alone but i just can't stand watching people tease him on what books he reads,how he explains stuff, and other horrible things they ask him about that they know is stupid and gross. I hate how people act like little kids and ask him those stupid questions and how he doesn't know id their just joking or their being serious. i hate it and i am now going to help him. become friends with him.
well thats it for now!

a. joy

not much

hello to the probably few people reading this. i am ew to the blogging world and im not exactly sure anyone is going to read this except maybe some of my family members.

im sure some people have been following my stepmom, stephanie's blog. she has been reading books for this year and her goal is 100. i also am reading an ammount of books this year too! my goal is to read 50. so far i have read 21. (almost as much as her!!) i really hope both she and i reach our goal this year.
well i don't have much but this is a start to my very first blog!