Ah, it's been a tiring day of walking and convincing. My feet hurt, and so do my knees. I went shopping with my WONDERFUL, AMAZING, MAGNIFICENT mommy! She took me to the mall and bought me lots of clothes, and lots of other stuff. She bought me so much, and is still giving me a hundred dollars for my D.C. trip! I love her so much and i can't explain how greatful i am for her!
We went to JC penny's and got me some stuff for me that i had been wanting for a while, Bras! Now i have my first really real bras! Two!! SO FREAKING EXCITED!!! Then we went to the pet shop to look at the pretty puppies! We walked around for a little bit, stopping at the disney store and i got a Animal shirt (Animal from the Muppets) and a perry the platypus shirt and a perry hat!!! I love it! I am wearing it right now for a matter of fact. I almost got a duck hat that was like a snow hat, but i didn't and its okay.... i'll get that duck hat eventually! (lol) Then we went to barnse and nobels and i got the latest book of the warriors series! YAY! and then we went to claires and got some earrings. I got some that were animals from the Ark, like Zebras, and leapoards and lions and giraffes. Then we went to a shoe store and got some shoes for both me and my mommy! I got just shoes that kind of look like converse, but arent. I luvs them! Then we went to hot topic for a little bit so i could show her who gir was, and we looked through some stuff there. Then we went to a makup store and mom did my make up, From cover up to mascara! and she got me some bare minerals make up. Very very awesome.
Then we went to an amazing lunch at Olive Garden! So yummy and fufilling! im still full. Then we went To walmart and got some more clothes, and jeans and t-shirts and tank tops and A FADORA!! hehehehe, i love the fadora. She also bought me a new razor, A Venus razor. Cant wait for that...Oh and while we were in the mall we went to bath and body works and she bought me some hand sanitizer and a wall flower lilac blossom pluch in...it smells amazing!! I can smell it out here and its in my room. I love it! She also bought me some body wash and two new body sprays. P.S. I love you and a new one that i cannot think of the name! Then after walmart we went to the highschool and hung out there.
Then after my time ran out at the highschool, i hurried to uncle jimmies. I babysat for Christina and Joeseph and Izel with my cousin, Esin. Im not sure if that is her name... my mind just went completly blank. We watched a movie and i talked with Esin about my family and what i want to be when i grow up. I had a lot of fun, up until i tried to get christi and Joe into bed. They ran around the house, then their parents walked in and they got in trouble... it was pretty funny. For me at least.
All in all i had a pretty good day! Shopping, Show chiors and Babysitting...Fun. Im tired and i need to go to sleep now. So good night world. See you another day!
A. Joy ♥
Saturday, February 26, 2011
Friday, February 25, 2011
Changed for good
I have just really listened to the "For good" from the musical Wicked. I cried! So many people i thought of when i listened to it. Mostly my best friend, Mckayla. Ugh, I love her so much!
I mostly thought about mckayla, because she is such a good friend to me, and she has had such a HUGE impact on my life! She brought the true crazy person out of me. And i love her for it. I will be hanging out with Mckayla for the rest of my life. If i move and never see her again i will bawl until i do see her again. I couln't live with out her. She is like my sister. She knows me like the back of her hand. (Hopefully, cause i know her like the back of my hand.) We tell eachother almost everything! We have so much in commom. I love her so much and i don't know what my life would be without her. Shes always there to be an encouragement to me. She doesnt get mad at me when i call her names, she just laughs and calls me one back. Although i found out that poking her makes her angry, i love her, but its still fun to poke her...
Another person i thought of was my friend Austin. Yeah, this is a girly song, but he's changed my life so much too! And i've helped him bring out the crazy zombie that lives inside him....well hes not a zombie, but HEY! who cares!
My step mom was another person i thought of. She has about the same impact on my life as mckayla does. She's shown me an amazing outlook on life. She helped me learn to love EVERYONE equally, just as god does. She helps me and is always ready to listen to me when i need her. I love her so much. I don;t know what i would do without her too. I look forward to seeing her each day. I love to ride around random places with her, just for the heck of it, and i LOVE, how she lets me. She is always there to encourage me when i need it. She provides so much stuff for me, and my my family, and i love her for that. She does so much me. We have so much in common too, and i love that about her!
These people and MANY more have changed my life in some way. I love each and everyone of them in my own special way. Because of everyone in my life I am changed for good in some way. They have each left an imprint on my life. They will always be in my heart no matter what, everyone can count on that.
I mostly thought about mckayla, because she is such a good friend to me, and she has had such a HUGE impact on my life! She brought the true crazy person out of me. And i love her for it. I will be hanging out with Mckayla for the rest of my life. If i move and never see her again i will bawl until i do see her again. I couln't live with out her. She is like my sister. She knows me like the back of her hand. (Hopefully, cause i know her like the back of my hand.) We tell eachother almost everything! We have so much in commom. I love her so much and i don't know what my life would be without her. Shes always there to be an encouragement to me. She doesnt get mad at me when i call her names, she just laughs and calls me one back. Although i found out that poking her makes her angry, i love her, but its still fun to poke her...
Another person i thought of was my friend Austin. Yeah, this is a girly song, but he's changed my life so much too! And i've helped him bring out the crazy zombie that lives inside him....well hes not a zombie, but HEY! who cares!
My step mom was another person i thought of. She has about the same impact on my life as mckayla does. She's shown me an amazing outlook on life. She helped me learn to love EVERYONE equally, just as god does. She helps me and is always ready to listen to me when i need her. I love her so much. I don;t know what i would do without her too. I look forward to seeing her each day. I love to ride around random places with her, just for the heck of it, and i LOVE, how she lets me. She is always there to encourage me when i need it. She provides so much stuff for me, and my my family, and i love her for that. She does so much me. We have so much in common too, and i love that about her!
These people and MANY more have changed my life in some way. I love each and everyone of them in my own special way. Because of everyone in my life I am changed for good in some way. They have each left an imprint on my life. They will always be in my heart no matter what, everyone can count on that.
Sunday, February 20, 2011
A World Where Everyone Has The Best Education (And other stuff!)
Recently at my church, GCC, we started a new series called "Picture This". They told people to send in pictures of themselves with their sign of how they want to change their community and help people. People have been sending their pictures and there are lots! I want to contribute to this! So yesterday, when we were sitting down in church an amazing Idea popped into my mind! So i wrote it down on the back of a paper in the handbooky thing... It Read "A Country Where Everyone Has An Education." That is my sign. But I changed it a little so that it is going to be "A WORLD where everyone has the BEST Education." I got this idea from a speech i had to write. The speech was about "If I were the leader of the free world, The first Issue I would adress would be...." I chose the education of kids and Teens in America. I discovered Maybe i should have expanded my horizons! Not just Kids and teens in AMERICA, but the education of kids and Teens everywhere. Some countries such as China and Japan Have amazing Education for their children, but a lot of countries Kids dont even get to go to school! I want a country where EVERYONE gets to have the privlage of learning. I think it's a privlage to learn unlike other kids. I want to make a change in the world. I want other kids in other countries to have good educations too! I don't know exactly what I'm supposed to do to help, but thats only because im 13. I can encourage other people to help those countries that dont have good educations for their children. I am fully aware that there are people out there known as Missionaries that do go around and help countries with their water supplies and their educations and other things to help them, but there are other countires. Most people focus on the countries in Africa, and Asia and in Central america, But I want to know about the people in Indonesia. What about them. I'm sure there are missionaries that have gone to Indonesia and other Islands in that area to help them and have made a GREAT chang in their lives, but i want to make sure that they have more of a change in their lives. I have a passion for the Education of other people. I love to help people and try to get kids in my classes to actually care about their grades, because without caring they won't be able to go on to do great things. I want to make sure that other people, not just in my school but all over the world, have good educations. I want a reassurance that people are out there helping them. Rebuilding schools and homes that have been destroyed, and giving kids the privlage to learn. I want a World where Everyone Has the BEST education!!
I'm not exactly sure what to write now, because i have really just written all i wanted to get out of my system! Ummmmm.....My Step mom and I started our own Biggest Looser kind of Boot camp Called "Bootie Camp!" We started that today and had fun with it! I can't wait for tomorrow! I'm going to exersize a little at home then I'm going to run for a while if it's not snowing or raining outside. (If that happens i will be extremly upset and cry.) Then when stephanie gets home, I'm going to do 200 jumping jacks with her and 50 crunches, and then walk a mile with her! Oh what fun!!
If you read my recent posts about trying to get second chair in band, I'm not sure if everyone knows yet, BUT I GOT IT!! I got second chair and I am rejoiceful! It made me extremly happy when i found out, but then sad because Austin got last :( and Mckayla got thrid chair. (Which is right next to mine! ☻) I lvoe sitting next to Mckayla though we get in trouble sometimes....because of me... baaaaad me! But i am in love with band! I was chosen for chinese new year mini woodwind ensamble for the library which was on friday and went really well! I had so much fun with that!
Yesterday I went to a baby shower with Stephanie, for her cousin Amber. I had fun! I got to dress a baby doll with one hand with Savannah! We almost won.. but didn't. But I did win for getting a good score on a Baby animal naming game... thing. I got a White Lilac and Lavender candel and some Sandal wood and something spray that smells pretty good! That's my back up when i run out of Twilight woods.
I finished a young hoosier book today. I think thats six this year. I have to get reading a lot now because my battle of the Books team is going up against a really good team by the name of "The Super Heros Without Capes" which consists of four girls (I think)that read a lot and won last year (i think). Anyway i have to read a lot and thats that! I can't wait to start reading the other books. I've only read a few and there is twenty. I gots to step up my game! I can't wait for the Battle! The Mini Ninjas Vs. The Super Heros Without Capes! I won't allow them to win. Even if we loose, we'll dominate in the losers bracket, then probably have to go up against them, again... I can' wait for that!!!
Well, thats all I have to say for today! Peace out little pewny humans!
A. Joy ♥
I'm not exactly sure what to write now, because i have really just written all i wanted to get out of my system! Ummmmm.....My Step mom and I started our own Biggest Looser kind of Boot camp Called "Bootie Camp!" We started that today and had fun with it! I can't wait for tomorrow! I'm going to exersize a little at home then I'm going to run for a while if it's not snowing or raining outside. (If that happens i will be extremly upset and cry.) Then when stephanie gets home, I'm going to do 200 jumping jacks with her and 50 crunches, and then walk a mile with her! Oh what fun!!
If you read my recent posts about trying to get second chair in band, I'm not sure if everyone knows yet, BUT I GOT IT!! I got second chair and I am rejoiceful! It made me extremly happy when i found out, but then sad because Austin got last :( and Mckayla got thrid chair. (Which is right next to mine! ☻) I lvoe sitting next to Mckayla though we get in trouble sometimes....because of me... baaaaad me! But i am in love with band! I was chosen for chinese new year mini woodwind ensamble for the library which was on friday and went really well! I had so much fun with that!
Yesterday I went to a baby shower with Stephanie, for her cousin Amber. I had fun! I got to dress a baby doll with one hand with Savannah! We almost won.. but didn't. But I did win for getting a good score on a Baby animal naming game... thing. I got a White Lilac and Lavender candel and some Sandal wood and something spray that smells pretty good! That's my back up when i run out of Twilight woods.
I finished a young hoosier book today. I think thats six this year. I have to get reading a lot now because my battle of the Books team is going up against a really good team by the name of "The Super Heros Without Capes" which consists of four girls (I think)that read a lot and won last year (i think). Anyway i have to read a lot and thats that! I can't wait to start reading the other books. I've only read a few and there is twenty. I gots to step up my game! I can't wait for the Battle! The Mini Ninjas Vs. The Super Heros Without Capes! I won't allow them to win. Even if we loose, we'll dominate in the losers bracket, then probably have to go up against them, again... I can' wait for that!!!
Well, thats all I have to say for today! Peace out little pewny humans!
A. Joy ♥
Saturday, January 15, 2011
Good ol' weekend!
Okay, so i think it was thursday that i was grounded. I'm not supposed to be on the computer, but luckily stephanie let me get on here to check my facebook and read her blog, which i have done. (Both of them.) I'm probably not supposed to be on here right now because stephie gave me a half an hour to do those two things. I felt like writing on my blog, so i will do it while she's asleep. Yeah, I know she's probably reading this, but hey, who can blame me!!
Funny thing about the whole grounding situation! You see, i wan't grounded because of my grades (Which i am very proud of at the moment because i think i gots all A's.) and i wasn't grounded for something bad that i did, (Because I'm such an Awesome child!!). I was grounded for a reason no child would ever do if they weren't me. I was groudned because i made stephanie ground me. I wanted to read more! I know, why the heck would ANY child want to be grounded just to read. Well, you see thats is the problem. I'm not just any child. I AM ME!! I am different than any child. I am a child like no other!! Who agrees with me?? ☻ You know that I am a different child, because i am actually enjoying my grounding! I am enjoying reading. I missed the thrill of finishing a book and wanting to start another! I LOVE IT!!! ♥♥
I finished the book 'the host' By Stephanie Meyer (is that how you speell her name???) Now, look at the title again. I know i usually dont capitalize the words that i am supposed to, but this time I did that on purpose because that is how it is on the cover and the side. No capitalization in the title wich i kind of find amuzing! I love that! Stephanie Meyer is an amazing Author! I LOVE HER BOOKS!! She is just the kind of author that i Love. She writes each of her books perfectly! and I love it... The book was freaking AMAZING!! Lots of action, and romance, and suspense... Ugh, those kind of authors just make me so giddy inside! I Loves it! Now I am reading another book by her, The last book of the Twilight Saga! VERY EXCITED! Stephanie decided that i was mature enough to read it. And i am enjoying very much!
Okay, If any guys are reading this, STOP NOW!!!! The next part is VERY FUNNY! but its just between us girls. Now, make sure you are away from the computer and you don't read the next part. You can if you want too, but you know, i would recommend you don't!
Anyway, Last night Stephanie and I were making supper and we were talking about Breaking Dawn. She leaned over to me and said, "Now, do we need to have the whole talk about the Birds and the Bees?" "No, I already talked about that stuff with mom." she nodded and said "Okay, but did she tell you Everything?" i looked at her. "Yes." She shrugged. "Okay, did she tell you that if you make muffins before your married you turn into an Antelope?" I looked at her. "She didn't tell you Everything did she?" I laughed and shook my head "No, Aparently not."That's what i Thought!" she said. Then i looked at her. and said, "You know, I wouldn't mind being an antelope. I would be walking and then i would be like-" And i posed like a jumping deer. We both laughed. She said "Oh, did i say Antelope? I meant Anteater. You'll be Ugly and you'll eat ants!" We laughed. "You know, If you come home some time with you're friends and you're an antelope, I'll know what happened!" she told me. I Laughed and said, "Yeah, I would be getting out of the car and you would look out the window and i would look at you and be like-" then i posed as a jumping deer again. "Yeah, you'd say, 'I'm Completly innocent! I just turned into an Antelope for no reason!" Tehehehehe....
Well, SNL is on now. Gwenyth Paltro ( I think that is her name) is hosting and Cee Lo is musical guest! Imma go watch that now!! PEACE OUT PEEPS!! and have an awesome weekend!!
A. Joy ♥
P.S. I love the weekend!!!
Funny thing about the whole grounding situation! You see, i wan't grounded because of my grades (Which i am very proud of at the moment because i think i gots all A's.) and i wasn't grounded for something bad that i did, (Because I'm such an Awesome child!!). I was grounded for a reason no child would ever do if they weren't me. I was groudned because i made stephanie ground me. I wanted to read more! I know, why the heck would ANY child want to be grounded just to read. Well, you see thats is the problem. I'm not just any child. I AM ME!! I am different than any child. I am a child like no other!! Who agrees with me?? ☻ You know that I am a different child, because i am actually enjoying my grounding! I am enjoying reading. I missed the thrill of finishing a book and wanting to start another! I LOVE IT!!! ♥♥
I finished the book 'the host' By Stephanie Meyer (is that how you speell her name???) Now, look at the title again. I know i usually dont capitalize the words that i am supposed to, but this time I did that on purpose because that is how it is on the cover and the side. No capitalization in the title wich i kind of find amuzing! I love that! Stephanie Meyer is an amazing Author! I LOVE HER BOOKS!! She is just the kind of author that i Love. She writes each of her books perfectly! and I love it... The book was freaking AMAZING!! Lots of action, and romance, and suspense... Ugh, those kind of authors just make me so giddy inside! I Loves it! Now I am reading another book by her, The last book of the Twilight Saga! VERY EXCITED! Stephanie decided that i was mature enough to read it. And i am enjoying very much!
Okay, If any guys are reading this, STOP NOW!!!! The next part is VERY FUNNY! but its just between us girls. Now, make sure you are away from the computer and you don't read the next part. You can if you want too, but you know, i would recommend you don't!
Anyway, Last night Stephanie and I were making supper and we were talking about Breaking Dawn. She leaned over to me and said, "Now, do we need to have the whole talk about the Birds and the Bees?" "No, I already talked about that stuff with mom." she nodded and said "Okay, but did she tell you Everything?" i looked at her. "Yes." She shrugged. "Okay, did she tell you that if you make muffins before your married you turn into an Antelope?" I looked at her. "She didn't tell you Everything did she?" I laughed and shook my head "No, Aparently not."That's what i Thought!" she said. Then i looked at her. and said, "You know, I wouldn't mind being an antelope. I would be walking and then i would be like-" And i posed like a jumping deer. We both laughed. She said "Oh, did i say Antelope? I meant Anteater. You'll be Ugly and you'll eat ants!" We laughed. "You know, If you come home some time with you're friends and you're an antelope, I'll know what happened!" she told me. I Laughed and said, "Yeah, I would be getting out of the car and you would look out the window and i would look at you and be like-" then i posed as a jumping deer again. "Yeah, you'd say, 'I'm Completly innocent! I just turned into an Antelope for no reason!" Tehehehehe....
Well, SNL is on now. Gwenyth Paltro ( I think that is her name) is hosting and Cee Lo is musical guest! Imma go watch that now!! PEACE OUT PEEPS!! and have an awesome weekend!!
A. Joy ♥
P.S. I love the weekend!!!
Saturday, January 8, 2011
Another Stupid Day
Okay so at this very moment i am wiping away tears from my cheeks...I cry very easily and I hate it. It Kind of makes me angry when im like in bed and thinking about stuff and i start bawling my head off. It's actually quite annoying.
Anyway, If you read my blog last night, you would have read about the brother-sister bond that i long to have with my brothers. I have come to realize that I do have a kind of Brother-sister bond with my brothers but it's just a different kind of bond. My stepmom has made me realize that-Even though i practiacally worship my brothers in every way, at the moment they will never really show that they are really proud of me (If they even are) until maybe when we grow up and they mature a little more. Right now i pray to god that maybe when we're adults we will be closer, and they actually will talk to me without yelling at me. And i can Be patient enough to wait.
Well, lately i've been really emotional. And you know I don't really enjoy it. I don't really enjoy crying every day. I just don't. I don't enjoy wanting to pour my heart out to someone, but afraid their going to criticize me, so i pour my heart out on paper, then hide it. I've done that so many times in the recent past. At the moment I'm pretty sure I am going through a phase of "Do I want to be a good person who does what she's told and is polite to everyone that she can be? (Brothers included)" Or "Do i want to one of those girls that everyone hates because i never listen to anyone and is always a Poo head to everyone." I, of course, would really like to be the first person. To be nice to everyone. I promised my stepmom that I would try my best not to fight with her all the time and not listen. Sometimes i really feel like i want to do that, but I haid it and do what I'm told so I don't get in trouble. That is why I do everything I am told. And respect my parents! At the moment i am just REALLY tired of getting yelled at because when I get yelled at, my parents scare the crap out of me. And to my parents, That is why i cry my head off every time you yell at me. So, for future refrences, It is because i am EXTREMLY sorry for what I did, But one of the biggest parts of it is because I'm scared.
On a happier Note, I am kind of Happy right now. I'm happy because I am working on perfecting my Chair test for band. I'm not happy about the Chair test in general (They make me really angry) but i am happy that i have a whole weekend to perfect it. And if i don't turn it in on monday, i still have twodays to perfect it. It is due on Wednesday, and wednesday is a long way away for the time being. My goal for this chair test is to chrush my best friend and take her spot as second chair. Or even maybe crush Matthew Haskins, and take first chair! I'm readyfor a freaking change in the seating!! It's always been- Matthew as First chair, Mckayla and second, Adam Moore as third and then someone else. I'm ready to change that... Have it- Either Me or Adam as First Chair, Or me as Second Chair. Matthew as Third (Or Mckayla) and Either Mckayla or Matthew as Fourth. I just really want some change in the front row... I just thought about something...Something that would REALLY stink would be if i got lower thatn Fourth chair. Man That would suck..
Well, On that happy thought, I'm going to go eat something then go practice until i cant stand to practice anymore! Well I guess a Late happy new year to everyone!
A. Joy! ♥
Anyway, If you read my blog last night, you would have read about the brother-sister bond that i long to have with my brothers. I have come to realize that I do have a kind of Brother-sister bond with my brothers but it's just a different kind of bond. My stepmom has made me realize that-Even though i practiacally worship my brothers in every way, at the moment they will never really show that they are really proud of me (If they even are) until maybe when we grow up and they mature a little more. Right now i pray to god that maybe when we're adults we will be closer, and they actually will talk to me without yelling at me. And i can Be patient enough to wait.
Well, lately i've been really emotional. And you know I don't really enjoy it. I don't really enjoy crying every day. I just don't. I don't enjoy wanting to pour my heart out to someone, but afraid their going to criticize me, so i pour my heart out on paper, then hide it. I've done that so many times in the recent past. At the moment I'm pretty sure I am going through a phase of "Do I want to be a good person who does what she's told and is polite to everyone that she can be? (Brothers included)" Or "Do i want to one of those girls that everyone hates because i never listen to anyone and is always a Poo head to everyone." I, of course, would really like to be the first person. To be nice to everyone. I promised my stepmom that I would try my best not to fight with her all the time and not listen. Sometimes i really feel like i want to do that, but I haid it and do what I'm told so I don't get in trouble. That is why I do everything I am told. And respect my parents! At the moment i am just REALLY tired of getting yelled at because when I get yelled at, my parents scare the crap out of me. And to my parents, That is why i cry my head off every time you yell at me. So, for future refrences, It is because i am EXTREMLY sorry for what I did, But one of the biggest parts of it is because I'm scared.
On a happier Note, I am kind of Happy right now. I'm happy because I am working on perfecting my Chair test for band. I'm not happy about the Chair test in general (They make me really angry) but i am happy that i have a whole weekend to perfect it. And if i don't turn it in on monday, i still have twodays to perfect it. It is due on Wednesday, and wednesday is a long way away for the time being. My goal for this chair test is to chrush my best friend and take her spot as second chair. Or even maybe crush Matthew Haskins, and take first chair! I'm readyfor a freaking change in the seating!! It's always been- Matthew as First chair, Mckayla and second, Adam Moore as third and then someone else. I'm ready to change that... Have it- Either Me or Adam as First Chair, Or me as Second Chair. Matthew as Third (Or Mckayla) and Either Mckayla or Matthew as Fourth. I just really want some change in the front row... I just thought about something...Something that would REALLY stink would be if i got lower thatn Fourth chair. Man That would suck..
Well, On that happy thought, I'm going to go eat something then go practice until i cant stand to practice anymore! Well I guess a Late happy new year to everyone!
A. Joy! ♥
Friday, January 7, 2011
My heros
Last night, I really didn't feel like reading at one point, so i decided i was going to write a poem! As i was writing this poem I bawled my head off. I cry when i think about stuff that means a lot to me, so therfor i started crying. I've decided that I'm going to share this poem with the people who happen to read my blog today! Well, Here goes nothing!
"My Hero"
By Aria Joy Salisbury
I look at you and think, "Hero"
You look at me and think, "Pest"
I look at you and see, "The Best"
You look at me and see, "An Interupption"
I think so much of you,
You think so little of me,
I think you could do anything,
You think I'm the worst at everything.
To Me, you're a Role Model
To you, I'm nothing
To me, You're the perfect older brother
To you, I'm just your little sister
I want you to actually think comething of me,
I want you to look at me and think "Sucsess!"
I want you to hug me, and actually be proud of me,
I want you to think i could do anything
You hate to be around me,
I love to spend time with you
You do everything for me because you're forced,
I just wish you would do it willingly
I just want you to know, I admire you in every way,
In my eyes you're everything
I want to be as good at everything as you are
To me, You're my Hero.
This poem is dedicated to my two older brothers! This was triggered by a book that i am reading at the moment. The book it called, "Witch and Wizard: The Gift" By James Patterson. The two main characters of this book are a brother and a sister, Whit and Wisty. I know that they are jsut fictional characters but their relationship that they have, I don't have any words for it. I want that relationship! I admire them and their relationship! I wish i could have the kind of relationship, that Wisty has with her older brother, with my older brothers. I know, you're probably thinking, "What is she talking about? What is their relationship like?" Well, I'll give you an example. At the moment in the book, "Wisty" is supposed to be executed. WHit is narrating this one part. "There's a flash- not of light but of somehow blackness- and she is gone. Wisty. My little sister. My best friend in the world....." In the next chapter he goes on to say, "If I'm still drawing in air, it's not because i care about living. The last person of the Allgood family that I knew for certain to be alive, the person who knew better than anyone else in the world, the person who looked up to me in everything, is gone. What an incredable waste of an inceredable life...."
Now, from my perspective, I'm pretty sure if i died at this very moment and my parents told my brothers, that they would be sad then go on to something else, because they are probably to busy with Video games at the moment. They wouldn't stop and think, "Wow, Aria is gone. The one that looked up to me in everything, The one who know me better than anyone else in the world. My best friend. My little sister." Yeah, I know I'm probably excadurating this sistuation a little to much really, But some times, I just wish they would think something like that. I know that I don't know my brothers better than anyone else in the world. I know that I'm not their best friend. I know that at the moment, they don't really care about me. And yeah, I know, I'm not going to die at this very moment, or anytime soon. So don't worry. The only thing i really would like that would compare, even just a little bit, to whit and wistys relationship, Is a good Brother,sister bond with my brothers. I would just want them to actually be around me sometime
Now, i know my brothers are probably going to end up readin this entry in my blog. I just want to say to,them if they do, I don't want to force them to have a good reltionship with me. I enjoy fighting with them sometimes. But sometimes, when they yell at me, it really hurts, and they have no idea how much it hurts. And all this is just my imagination at work. Me imagining that i have a good relationship with my brothers. All this stuff is stuff that i really want, but i'm not going to force ANYONE to do. Maybe, just by writing this, i might change my whole relationship with my brothers. On the other hand, Probably not. Now for the Poem, all that stuff about the "You think," and "When you look at me" stuff is just from my perspective. It may not all be true, but from where i stand, it is. Every thing that i wrote, about me thinking. Well, Thats all true. That is all that i think! Now i have a bunch of other things floating around in my head about this and i just dont know how to write it. So for now I'm going to stop.
To Michael and Zachary, If you're reading this, I just want to tell you that I love and admire you in every way. Everything that i think about you is in the poem.
A. Joy ♥
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
Catching up on a few things....
Christmas is just around the corner. My christmas concert for school is coming up! Though i am excited i am also very very nervous even though its very very rare that i actually get nervous. I know my friends and family will be out in the audience But i can't bring myself to use that as the confidence that i usually have. When I get out on that stage all by myself i will look out into the audience and if my family doesn't wave to me i won't sing. I Just need the reassurance that their are watching me. I really hope that everyone that i hope are out there are actually out there or i will be very sad. I want to have that reassurance and confidence that i usually have when i am on stage by myself but this time I'm kind of doubting myself on that part. On the brightside i know that if I mess up no one will know because no one really knows the song im singing. If you do your either in my class and you've heard it, or your just weird...... which would be weird. I am looking forward to that moment where I hear those applauds for me. That always makes my day when i am alone onstage. Everyone who reads this and is going to the concer better sit in the front row for my song and be clapping the loudest. Even though i cannot see the future i REALLY hope that i sing it just right! If you are there it will help a LOT.
My Eighth Grade year has been full of Victories and Defeats this year. My biggest defeats aren't really that big! But to me they mean so much. One of my biggest defeats was, well, I know it may sound funny but it was getting a B in math, for a short period of time. I believe that is my biggest defeat that i am willing to share. Tehe... One of my greatest victories is being submitted to a leadership convention by Mrs. Cammenga. I didn't know for a while but then my step mom told me and i felt so proud of myself. This year, i know i may sound a little self centered but so many people have told me to be proud of myself and be happy that i've achieved what i have. And I am. I am very happy and so very proud and i really hope others feel the same!
About a few weeks ago i spent about an hour, maybe longer, with Stephanie. We went through a lot of what she had written for essays and just for fun. I loved to hear her reading to me while we had cookies. (the cookies were yummy) Some of the things she read were funny and some were sad. I loved them all. She is an amazing writer and i love to hear what she has written. I am so proud of her because just last week she told me that she was proposed with a writing job for a woman who was wanting her life story written into a play. When I heard that she had asked stephanie i was so very proud and happy for her. Then the next day i believe or maybe a few days after she came into the house and said, "You know that writing job i had told you about?" I told her i did. She smiled and told me "Well, I met with the woman and she gave me the job, I even started writing some of the stuff down." I was so happy for her! I was so proud too. I am so very proud of her in so many ways not just for this but in so many other ways. She can make me so happy when im having a crappy day, thats one thing i love about her. She can make me laugh when i cry unlike a lot of people. She always looks on the brightside when shes talking to me and i love it. I love how no one else is like her and can make me as happy as she can. If your reading this i love you so much stephanie!! More that you can ever imagine!
I don't really know what else to write about so i think i'll jsut sign out for now! I might actually start writing on here more often now that i can actually remember. Well, bye peace out!!
Aria Joy
My Eighth Grade year has been full of Victories and Defeats this year. My biggest defeats aren't really that big! But to me they mean so much. One of my biggest defeats was, well, I know it may sound funny but it was getting a B in math, for a short period of time. I believe that is my biggest defeat that i am willing to share. Tehe... One of my greatest victories is being submitted to a leadership convention by Mrs. Cammenga. I didn't know for a while but then my step mom told me and i felt so proud of myself. This year, i know i may sound a little self centered but so many people have told me to be proud of myself and be happy that i've achieved what i have. And I am. I am very happy and so very proud and i really hope others feel the same!
About a few weeks ago i spent about an hour, maybe longer, with Stephanie. We went through a lot of what she had written for essays and just for fun. I loved to hear her reading to me while we had cookies. (the cookies were yummy) Some of the things she read were funny and some were sad. I loved them all. She is an amazing writer and i love to hear what she has written. I am so proud of her because just last week she told me that she was proposed with a writing job for a woman who was wanting her life story written into a play. When I heard that she had asked stephanie i was so very proud and happy for her. Then the next day i believe or maybe a few days after she came into the house and said, "You know that writing job i had told you about?" I told her i did. She smiled and told me "Well, I met with the woman and she gave me the job, I even started writing some of the stuff down." I was so happy for her! I was so proud too. I am so very proud of her in so many ways not just for this but in so many other ways. She can make me so happy when im having a crappy day, thats one thing i love about her. She can make me laugh when i cry unlike a lot of people. She always looks on the brightside when shes talking to me and i love it. I love how no one else is like her and can make me as happy as she can. If your reading this i love you so much stephanie!! More that you can ever imagine!
I don't really know what else to write about so i think i'll jsut sign out for now! I might actually start writing on here more often now that i can actually remember. Well, bye peace out!!
Aria Joy
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